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MAH MAH.. Me down because LOOK.. I am still alive and well.. as I saw YOU and walking along side and I stopped and it made you stop and I would say to YOU.. I love YOU MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I love you and I would walk way back in the line with Many New Young Men who were recruits.. as I am LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. I remember still.. even this very day My Heart never changed.. because I still Love YOU.. both hands holding the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. this One has never been torn.. because I kept it safe.. close to My Heart.. and I would lift UP my Head.. I am LOOKING at YOU.. as YOU are sitting on the Horse.. with the White Dress.. your Sword still pointing direct at Me.. and I would say.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I have never stopped Loving YOU because I know that STILL at this Moment.. I still Love YOU and Yes.. I will take orders.. your Commands seriously and help rebuild Your Forces.. make them into warriors who will Fight for YOU.. who will protect YOU and defend this Nation because.. the Day I was rejected was the Day I saw YOU and that DAY was when YOU let me In.. I just wanted to tell YOU.. Crown Princess.. thank YOU for giving me the Chance to be a soldier who can protect and defend YOU and this Nation.. as I grab the stick.. putting the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU on the ground.. I get UP.. and the Seven Men who are behind me.. they are all get UP.. Arms stretch forward and the Heads all lower to YOU.. I would grab the stick.. the Seven MEN stays behind.. and I would walk down by myself.. and I would stand.. as One YOUNG MEN recruit walks Out.. He has the Stick in his Hand.. and I would shout.. to see How well does this YOUNG MAN can fight.. and I would turn to LOOK at HIM.. I would remember.. when I was at the Older Man's House.. In the ROOM.. I would be sitting Alone.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I would be looking at YOU through that.. I would be asking.. I would be saying.. MAH MAH.. WHY do I keep on missing YOU.. I am trying to leave this Place.. I am trying so hard to leave.. so that I can be with YOU.. be close to YOU.. but I feel like I can't.. looking at this Picture.. this drawing picture of YOU.. I keep on missing YOU.. I needs to be with YOU.. and I can hear the DOOR.. it opens behind me.. and the Loud thunder and it is raining Hard out side.. the Older Man.. the teacher.. grabs my Back shirt.. my both hands opens to release the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU and I let it go.. I feel the Pull from the back and He yanks Me out of the room and I fall Out side.. I just can't believe I am out side sitting as I am getting hit by the rain.. it is pouring down On me because it is raining so Hard.. I stood and sitting.. crying because I am missing YOU.. I want to go where YOU are.. It is aching and Pain in me.. I want to be where YOU at.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. when can I see YOU and be close to YOU.. I needs to go to YOU.. and a stick falls to the ground next to Me.. I felt so Lonely at One Point.. at the Lowest of My Life and It was Only YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. It was Only YOU.. I cried when I saw YOU gone.. I remember watching YOU leave.. Sitting on the Horse.. I kept on calling Out to YOU.. But it was one of the Servants who took Me.. and Told me that I just could Not go.. I was reaching Out both arms.. shouting Out.. as the Horse was leaving.. in the Garden I felt so Alone.. crying in the dark.. I just could Not believe that YOU were gone.. I stood alone.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. I just could Not stop.. But kept calling Out to YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would watch the Moon come UP before Me.. and I would shout with the Loud Voice.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I am going to YOU.. very soon I will go to YOU.. when I heard the News.. and MY father died.. and came to the Garden.. I saw His body and with the servants.. We would bury my father.. I just could Not take this kind of Pain any More.. as I sat that night.. My Father was gone.. my Mother died when I was very young.. and even whom I love.. which Is you.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. even YOU.. I had to watch YOU leave me.. and Now.. there was NO reason for me to be at the Garden any more.. everything was Gone.. and whoever came to the Garden.. they were all taken away from me.. when I felt the Most lonely in my life.. the Only thing that remained close to my Heart.. It was the Art sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would unfold and I would take a Look at YOU.. talking to the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I would say.. Is it okay if I go to YOU.. what If YOU do Not want me to be near.. But there is nothing else.. there is NO ONE else I can Love.. but Only YOU I truly Love.. Please.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. would you let me get close to YOU.. I needs to tell YOU something.. packing One bag I would carry in my back.. I would look at the Garden One last time.. and I cried looking at my Father's grave and I would leave.. telling that I am Not going to ever come back.. too many people who I loved are gone before me.. My Heart is broken already.. I don't need my Hear to break again.. so I left the Garden.. wanting to start a new Life.. and I was thinking of the Palace.. Your Kingdom.. wondering if I could enter.. since I knew who YOU were.. maybe I be your servant.. I be your slave then.. so I have set my eyes on Your Kingdom.. I wanted to get close to YOU.. walking through the Day.. I would Not eat.. not much Out in the desert.. so I had to stay hungry for few days.. I would stop for rest at Night.. LOOKING at the stars in the sky.. Looking at the Moon.. and I would unfold the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I would Kiss the paper and say.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I will see you soon.. since I have No other place to Go.. I have made UP my Mind.. that I will come to YOU instead.. so I would take some rest.. thinking of YOU.. missing YOU.. sitting on rocks.. watching the Night passes by.. LOOKING at the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. early in the morning.. before the Sun sets.. I would start the Walk.. I have NO other place to go.. but I only wanted to see YOU.. to tell YOU that I would do anything to be close to YOU.. I be a servant.. Your Slave if YOU want me too.. so I started this journey to go to YOU.. did Not think that the winter storm was coming.. and It got so Cold.. I saw the snow flakes falling from the sky and dropping to freezing cold.. I begin to think about Death.. Maybe I won't make it after.. I am suppose to die here instead.. But I want to tell YOU something before I die.. I have to tell YOU one more time.. and I kept on walking through the freezing cold.. I would shiver and I would cry.. is it suppose to end like this.. that I always wanted to go to the Palace.. always dreamed of being close to YOU and to Love YOU.. even though YOU do not have to tell me anything.. I am Not asking YOU to tell me.. until you know in your Heart that YOU do.. if YOU truly love Me.. I believe Dreams will come true.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. If I die right here.. will YOU know that I never stopped believed in love.. I have never stopped believe that One day.. something Can happen.. and the lack of Food and the energy and the coldness of the air.. I just could Not continue to walk further so I fell on the ground.. and ALL I can hear is.. and ALL I wanted to tell YOU is that I love YOU.. that I never gave UP on love.. I truly feel it in my heart.. don't YOU know that I loved YOU and still do.. and I saw my tears ran down as I would close both eyes.. I would hear some noises.. and my two eyes opens.. and I am laying on the ground.. I turn my head too look.. an Older man was sitting.. reading pages of something and looks at Me.. I could Not believe that I did Not die.. But.. I heard.. it is the WILL to Live.. because I know that IN my Heart.. I am truly determined to Love YOU.. My WILL to Live so that I can Love YOU is what I got.. as I would hear.. I would be calling Out to YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. PRINCESS.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and even when I was on His back.. I would be calling Out to YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. that I needs to go to you.. and too see YOU.. and as I would be healing from the cold.. and the Low of energy cause of the lack of food.. the Older man became my teacher.. telling me that I can't go Now.. that I needed to wait and give some time.. and He was going to teach me the Art of War.. the Art of swordsmanship.. and Saw my Heart.. my Dreams of Loving YOU.. and to be protecting the Nation YOU were going to create.. and I would sit.. and I wanted to tell Him.. why.. and next to me is the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I wanted to tell this Older man.. I should just go.. and just go to YOU before it is just too Late.. but One thing that the Master told me is this.. if I truly love YOU.. I will be a Man.. a warrior who can Protect YOU.. Like a real MAN who fights.. and Just like my Dead father.. he was like the second father I really needed.. I would turn.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. But My Heart misses YOU.. what if I can't take this missing away.. I know that I miss YOU so much right Now.. what do I do when my Heart feels like it has been cut with a knife.. and My Heart right Now feels like bleeding to death.. and I wanted to say.. I should of been left to die instead because I knew I was going to die anyways.. but I looked at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and I would take a Look and would say.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. YOU do not know

MAH MAH.. And I turn to face the King.. PEH HA!! I know I was told.. I am not suppose to Love CONG JU NIM.. Someone told me not to go far.. and I know what I have done is wrong.. I am going to say I am so sorry to Love MAH MAH.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. I did Not want to love but.. I started too.. and I still do Love CONG JU NIM.. and I would turn to face YOU.. YOU are wearing that White dress.. But why.. I can't forget the first time I saw YOU in that White Dress.. it was long ago before I even knew YOU.. I remember my Father would take me to the Palace.. I was a young boy.. he got me riding on a horse.. and He as pulling on the side coming to the Palace and it was a long travel.. as my father stopped.. a gate and with bars.. and I remember my father would tell me.. there is the Princess.. CONG JU NIM. and I would look through the bars.. and I would see a little girl running out.. with a white dress.. the maids and male servants are chasing after the Princess.. My Father looks at me and tells me.. He had to attend the Princess.. he was a part of the service.. and I am sitting on the horse.. I remember I got off the Horse.. and the guards opens the gate.. and I walk with my father next to Him.. that was the first time I saw YOU MAH MAH.. I am Not sure if YOU remember me.. I was with my Father and He told me to have respect and honor for the Princess.. this is MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I would stand next to my father and I would bow my head 90 degrees to give YOU respect as the Princess of the Nation.. I stood there.. I am standing here before the Princess.. and My Father knows the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. my father would walk with you.. and there were several other male servants and Maids around.. I saw YOU for the first time.. I saw YOU twirl in circle with the White dress.. I remember YOU were smiling.. the sun was shining.. I just can't believe how Beautiful YOU really looked.. I could not say a word because I was very shy.. YOU would be running around and more of the maids and male servants are chasing after YOU.. I am thinking.. YOU are so Fierce and Bold.. I watched a MAID fall on the ground cause she could not catch YOU.. I stood there.. a Princess.. CONG JU NIM is not afraid.. is not shy.. and I remember when YOU stopped running.. YOU started to order the Maids and the Male servants.. they would all look on the floor.. and I saw YOU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. in the white dress.. YOU walked into Your Chamber.. my Father told me.. this is where you stayed.. and It was so huge.. the palace that I remembered.. my Father would put me back on the Horse and as we would go back Home.. He would be on the side walking.. and I be sitting on top of the Horse.. He would share all kinds of stories what he had to face when he was with YOU.. attending YOU to service for the King but was put in charge over the servants.. he was the Head of the servants but still a servant.. and my father told me that One day he is going to bring YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM to the garden.. I am looking at you with my chains on the wrist.. DO YOU NOT remember.. I still remember like it had happened yesterday.. How come YOU don't remember me when I was at the outer court of Your Chamber.. my Father was the Head of the servants.. and I would turn to look at the King.. PEH HA!! DO you not remember my father.. My Father worked in the king's service but he was with Your Daughter.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. He would take care of PRINCESS.. and I turn to look at YOU.. and my Heart.. it is breaking if YOU don't remember when I was there.. I saw YOU in the same white dress.. I saw YOU and YOU would twirl around in circles.. and I can't never forget Your Smile.. that smile I still can see in the back of my mind.. and I would look on the ground.. I would go out at night.. to the garden I would walk alone.. looking at the bed of flowers.. and I would think of YOU.. and the images in my mind started to POP like pictures.. I would see YOU in that white Dress.. twirling around.. with your smile.. YOUR JOY.. Your true happiness.. I want that Love.. I want it too.. How you would be in charge and taking actions.. I would stand in the night.. by the bed of flowers.. I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to be where YOU were.. I wasn't happy where I was at.. LOOK at me.. I am a Low Born.. son of a servant.. who wants to be born to a Low born.. I want something More.. and as I look at the bed of flowers.. I would cry.. cry because I am a slave.. why do I have to be like this.. YOU should not be here.. YOU know that I am going to die soon.. I am a criminal.. and YOU have no rights to be here.. I have been charged and death is my sentence.. Please.. YOU should stay away from this CRIMINAL.. and I am so sorry.. I have wronged YOU.. I should not told YOUR Father.. PEH HA! the King about my heart and my love for YOU.. I should of kept silent and to myself but I just couldn't hold back.. I choose to die anyways so I just had to tell Your Father.. PEH HA! the King.. If I am going to die and be charged any ways and I had nothing to lose anyways.. I have chosen to die.. that is why I told HIM the truth.. even though I should not.. and I would not hear any words from YOU.. I would only hear the papers.. the letters flipping and YOU asked me.. when did I learn how to write.. where did I learn.. and I am looking on the floor.. both fours.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. My father taught me.. my grandfather was a Nobleman.. but he was charged and stripped off.. and became a slave.. but my grandfather was a swordsman and taught my father.. my father taught me how to read and to write.. he showed me the characters.. and I would start to study and learn being taught by my father.. My father told me that he had to give me everything before he goes and knew that something was going to happen to him.. so my father passed down the knowledge and I started to study and learn very hard under his guidance.. and I wanted to give YOU these letters.. I had no other ways to send but.. my Heart.. My Heart kept on telling me to tell YOU.. to tell YOU what is really going inside.. I rather die right now then go through this Pain.. this pain of loving YOU is killing me more.. that is why I am just waiting.. I am asking YOU.. when YOU see my body laying on this prison cell.. please.. take my body beside.. you know the garden.. please put my body next to my father.. He gave me everything so I want to be with my father.. I been writing all these letters soon I was sentenced to death.. and knowing my time is coming near.. so I wanted to tell YOU.. at least you know how I feel about you.. when I am gone.. and long ways apart.. at least these letters is going to tell YOU a story.. about a MAN.. a Low born.. from a slave family.. what hurts me the most is that I can't be with YOU.. I want to be with YOU.. I want to be the one who loves YOU.. I just wish that I can.. but it seems like it won't work out.. I wanted to focus on loving YOU.. but only way is to tell you through these letters that I write.. too tell YOU I will never stop loving YOU.. even if I die.. I still will love YOU.. even if my body goes into the grave.. my spirit will be with you.. I be loving you then.. but you have to promise me.. take my body back to the garden.. bury me next to my father.. without my father.. I wouldn't be able to write.. How can I come this very.. my father is the one who taught me.. and that is why I am able to tell you this very day.. I could of sat in the prison cell silent.. but.. I knew.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I have this urgency to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I LOVE YOU.. My grandfather served the King.. PEH HA.. He became the CHIEF GENERAL and became the Noble for Your Father.. PEH HA.. the King.. my father told me that I could dream like my grandfather.. because He was unable too do.. and that is why he started to teach me.. until I saw YOU.. and I just couldn't stop dreaming.. but dreaming to be with YOU.. to love YOU more and more.. I wanted you to know that is How much I love YOU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. YOU are the only One who I love.. I have written a lot of letters.. LOOK at the letters.. see how much I have written because I wanted to tell YOU.. my heart is that much filled.. of course there is a part of History of what I been through.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. as I would look at YOU through the Bars.. I see you turn around.. and there was a Messenger for the King.. and I see you giving the Letters to the Messenger for the King.. PEH HA and he bows his head and turns and walks off and I see you turn to look at me.. and YOU tell me to raise Up.. but I would just stay on my fours.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. PLEASE.. when I die.. take my body and take it to the garden.. the bed of flowers.. and next to my father.. I want to be close to my father when I die.. but if I am able to go on.. I want to be near YOU.. too love YOU.. even this Prison Cell.. YOU may thing am I holding anything against.. NO.. because at least I am near YOU.. I am still inside the King's palace.. I know that I could of been thrown outside.. but still being

BABY TIGER, THEY WOULD NOT EVEN LOOK AT ME BUT FOR YOU TO LOVE A BULLFROG THAT IS SOMETHING VERY SPECIAL THAT I FEEL AND NOW I BE CRYING ALONE, AFTER REGRETTING OF NOT MAKING YOU HAPPY I WANTED TO GIVE YOU EVERYTHING THAT I COULD EVERYTHING I HAD BUT MAYBE THAT WAS NOT ENOUGH AND I POURED OUT A SHOT INTO THE SHOT GLASS I DID NOT EAT ANYTHING SO ON AN EMPTY STOMACHE IT GOT ME GOOD BABY TIGER, HOW CAN A MAN LIKE ME LOVE A WOMAN LIKE YOU WHEN I LOOK AT MYSELF I FEEL SO SMALL I FEEL SO UNWORTHY AS A MAN CUZ I HAVE NOTHING TO GIVE I LOOK AT THE PAGE, I LOOK AT THE LEVEL AND I FEEL LIKE NOBODY A POOR MAN WHO GOTS NOTHING TO MAKE YOU HAPPY AND IT BREAKS MY HEART CUZ I FEEL LIKE A JOKE BABY TIGER, AND WHEN I LOOK AT HOW WONDERFUL AND BEAUTIFUL YOU ARE IT KILLS ME TO SEE THAT I WISH, OH I WISH, OH I WISH YOU SEE THAT YOU ARE VERY SMART, THAT MEANS INTELLIGENT YOU ARE VERY STRONG INDIVIDUAL WHO IS ABLE TO OVERCOME AND YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL, SO BEAUTIFUL, SO ATTRACTIVE TO ME AND I LOOK AT MYSELF, DO I HAVE ANY OF THESE QUALITIES BABY TIGER, AND I WOULD SAY I HAVE NO LOOKS, I AM NOT ATTRACTIVE AS A MAN I AM NOT EVEN SMART, NO INTELLIGENT AND I AM NOT THAT STRONG, WEAK AND SO SMALL I FEEL ALL THE TIME I AM SHORT TOO SO IT GIVES ME DISADVANTAGE WHEN YOU CHOOSE A MAN AND I WOULD TEAR DOWN THE PICTURES OF MY WALL CUZ I FEEL LIKE A BULLFROG BUT WHEN I SEE YOUR FACE, WHAT GIVES ME THIS INSPIRATION TO IS THIS BABY TIGER, THE MORE I SEE YOU, THE MORE YOU BE SHINING LIKE A DIAMOND ROCK THE MORE I SEE YOU, THE MORE YOU LOOK LIKE A RUBY ON FIRE THE MORE I SEE YOU, THE MORE YOU BE SHINING LIKE A STAR THE MORE I SEE YOU, THE MORE I BEGIN TO WANT YOU AND EVEN NEED YOU THE MORE I SEE YOU, THE MORE I BEGIN TO FEEL MY HEART BEATING FOR YOU THE MORE I SEE YOU, THE MORE I FEEL MY HEART STARTING TO LOVE YOU WHEN I FEEL MY HEART BE LOVING YOU, I DESIRE YOU AND MY PASSION BURNS MY HEART BABY TIGER, AND I DO NOT KNOW THE REASON WHY, BUT EVERYTIME I SEE YOU WHY ARE YOU BE LOOKING SO BEAUTIFUL BABY BEAR, WHY ARE YOU BE CHANGING INTO A BUTTERFLY WITH GREAT COLORS WHY ARE YOU SO BEAUTIFUL TO ME, WHY OH WHY, TELL ME WHY YOU BE LOOKING GOOD AND I POUND MY CHEST AND I CAN HARDLY BREATHE WHAT I SEE YOU BABY TIGER, IT IS CUZ YOU TAKE MY BREATHE AWAY, MY HEART BEAT, OH MY HEART BEATS AND THE MORE BEAUTIFUL YOU ARE GETTING EACH TIME I SEE YOU YOU ARE MAKING ME WEAK INSIDE, I FEEL MY LEGS BE SHAKING MY HANDS RISES CUZ I WANNA TOUCH YOUR FACE AND I BURN IN MY ROOT OH WHAT CAN I DO, TELL ME WHAT CAN THIS MAN DO FOR YOU EVEN THO I FEEL SO SMALL, I CANNOT STOP BE LOVING YOU PLEASE BABY BEAR, DON'T GO! BABY TIGER, AND I KEPT ON STRIVING TO BE THE BEST BY KEEPING IT REAL THAT MEANS KEEPING THE PROMISE TO OUR GOD TO LIVE FOR HIM AND FOR YOU I BELIEVE IT IS THE SAME THING FOR EVEN FOR YOU BABY TIGER, WHEN I FIRST SAW YOU, I DID NOT KNOW WHAT I WAS FEELING BUT IN MY HEART, I WANTED TO DRAW NEAR, I JUST WANTED TO CLOSE I DO NOT KNOW WHY, BABY TIGER, IT WAS JUST SOMETHING YOU WERE PULLING ME IN I WANTED TO STOP MYSELF, I BE SCARED CUZ OF PAINS I FELT I WANTED TO PUSH YOU AWAY, I WANTED TO LEAVE YOU OUT OF MY SIGHT BUT MY HEART WILL NOT STOP LOVING YOU BABY TIGER, I MEMBER MY HEART WOULD JUST BEAT WHEN YOU GOT CLOSER TO ME IT FELT LIKE A HUGE EARTH QUAKE IN MY CHEST I SAID WHAT IS THIS I BE FEELING, I HATE EARTH QUAKES, BABY TIGER, IT IS SCARY FEELING, I WANTED TO KEEP AWAY BUT MAN, AS I WOULD LOOK AND STARE AT YOU, YOU STARTED TO APPEAR BABY TIGER, VERY BEAUTIFUL TO ME, YOU KEEP ON GETTING MORE PRETTIER AND I WAS WONDERING I AM NOT DOING TOO MUCH TO YOU HOW CAN YOU BE GETTING MORE PRETTTIERS, MAYBE YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE